Locked Out of Life

From Chapter 28: A NEW SECTION
Ghazal 1025
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That essence of wakefulness once again put me to sleep, taking away the opium of turmoil from my head.  
With a hundred tricks, I make myself unaware and ignorant of him, and that perfect moon comes with such a goblet in his hand.  
He tells me, "Won't you say how long you'll wander like a beggar, begging at every door like every destitute and unfortunate one?"  
In this misery and deception, a slave to the cloak and jug, if you are true and genuine, why are you in this sack?  
From these things that are born of you, kings are ashamed; you were a king, why should you be mocked by the devil?  
Who can speak his words, for the world is not his mate; the world is blind and existence is deaf to his manifest and hidden self.  
If I had the tongue to reveal the secret of the beloved, every soul that heard it would escape from this passage.  
From that beloved with a brave heart, I am in a very difficult state, as my chest is ruined by that wandering and splendor.  
If I speak to the believers, they all become infidels at that moment, and if I speak to the infidels, no infidel remains in the world.  
Last night, his vision came to me in a dream, seeking grace, and asked me, "How are you?" I said, "Without you, very distressed."  
If we had a hundred lives, they would be shed from your sorrow, my friend; is your heart stone, flint, or a mountain of marble?

Barks Interpretation

Again it happens in my sleep.